first and foremost: happy thanksgiving to everyone! i hope you are having an amazing time with your loved ones around you. thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because it was truly a blessing to have my entire family come together for dinner. and its not that dinner gatherings weren't a thing in our family... we always did them... but the label of it made it more interesting and fun for me as a kid and i have so many memories of it. having my mom, aunt, grandma in the kitchen trying to make everything ready while us kids were running around or watching something.... put that together with fall in the background and a cozy atmosphere (not to mention the good food).. i just loved it.
as my life takes me on yet another journey this year, i'm not with my family this time around but i'll see them soon. there are so many things i'm thankful for this year and i feel so guilty for not feeling thankful every day. its so easy to get caught up with nonsense distractions in life that we really do forget the good things we have. we always have something to be happy and thankful for in the day... we just tend to overlook them.
of the many things that i am thankful for... such as my family (Mom, Dad, Anita, Asdren) who are my life, the opportunities they have given me, where my life has brought me thus far, the easiness of this transition to a new country because i know some people may find it with more difficulty, someone as thoughtful and comforting as Yll to have by my side, and much more.... but there's one specific thing i'm most thankful for this year.
on my mom's second day in bedrest this summer (i didn't know about it yet) i had just flown back to Prishtina from Austria to find her laying on the couch unable to even greet me. these past 4 months it has been a roller coaster of feelings to watch her deal with so much pain yet still keep herself together so well, with so much patience and gratitude and even have the time to deal with all of our problems. it was now that we as a family realized that literally... nothing in the world matters so long as we're happy and healthy.. no matter how cheesy it sounds.
because nothing did matter to me these past four months ,,except for her.
if she was happy - i was happy. if she was sad - i was sad. if she cried - i cried with her so she wouldn't be alone.... even though these 4 months weren't the best in a medical aspect (thank God she's finally getting better)...they were amazing because my mother and i had not spent that much time together in a very long time. i spent every single second of the day with her and we even had sleepovers in each others bedrooms which made me feel 5 again. we'd call my aunts on a daily basis and get together and just hang out day after day, night after night, while my mom lay there on the couch until she started feeling better. i had no care for anyone outside my family and it was one of the best times i've had in a looong time. and i can't wait to see her in 10 days to do it all over again!
her surgery was last week and thankfully it went well and she is slowly getting better and pain free.
so momma, i want you to know that of all the great things that have come my way this year.... these 4 months spent with you night and day- i will always, always remember as one of my favorite moments in life. love you!
on another note: i found this cute list of "things i love about autumn" on Pinterest and it couldn't be more to the point... at least for me. this is why this season is one of my favorites... also cause i was born in the fall =P. again happy thanksgiving to you all!